I am not taking photos.
I keep telling myself that this drought I am going through will probably (hopefully) make me a better photographer with time, but the reality right now is that I am suffering a complete lost of confidence in my ability to compose an interesting story.
I started the term fairly happy with what I had done in the first part of the course, and I had quite a few new ideas to start working on. Time has gone fast and I am now thinking that, of all those ideas, I problably chose the more demending one and I have not been able to cope with my own expectations.
I wanted to do a fair portrait of Tenerife through street photography. I now know that, considering the time and effort that takes to get one interesting image of street action, and having my time limited by a full time job, I would need a life time to put together a couple of dozens photos that I would be happy to call “a portrait”.
So… I guess I should admit that my first attempt at this re-think project has not been very sucessful and I should start re-thinking again.
In an attempt to get out of my confort zone, that is, shooting with my Nikon D3, I borrowed a medium format camera. I absolutely loved to work with it, at least until I got to the developing phase. Apart from being very expensive and messy, the lab I took them to, gave me back 2:1 crops of my square photos. “In case you want to print them in 10x15cm” – they said. At that point my encouragement to try film cameras had reached very low levels.
I have also been shooting with a Fuji X100. I have no more to say than I am slowly learning to love it.
December 27, 2012